Oh Man

So I figured since I did an update this afternoon about yesterday I should get another post up about how today went. I found myself checking my weight every time I went into the bathroom. I know it's unhealthy but today I couldn't help it before I go to bed I have to check how I did this week. I know I've lost a little bit, but not nearly as much as I had hoped for. I binged on pasta, and then regretted it because I felt so sick. Then when the pain subsided I had some ice cream, so when I got hungry about 30 minutes ago I decided to finally be good and have spinach salad, and found myself thinking if Ana was a person she would be as disgusted, if not more than I am at what I did today. Of course as soon as I thought of him, the boy I met last night, I felt even more disgusted wiith myself. But I also know that tomorrow I will do better, because I want to fit in those pants, I want to be worthy of him, and more then anything, I want to be happy with who I am.