15

So I realize it has been almost a month, but I wanted to have something good to tell you, and I wanted some time away from all the stuff that went on just before I took my "break". I stopped worrying so much for a bit, but didn't gain any weight thankfully. I have gotten down to my 15's instead of the 16's. Which is really cool, cause it means I'm that much closer to my goal. However it isn't all of my 15's just the bigger ones, but the smaller ones are almost 14's so I'm going to count them as such. Unfortunately I haven't really lost any weight, but it's the size I'm more worried about.
I found a friend, her name is Rhii, we both ave the same kind of problem. We are sick of being fat, want to be thin, and want it now. So we support each other and chat whenever we need to. And since we live in the same town it makes it better. I'm getting better with just eating healthy, although I still often just want to stop eating completely. However I will do what I can without being "unhealthy". I want to get to be a tiny little thing, but I don't actually want to look sickly. I just want there to be enough of me, and nothing more. Which probably doesn't make sense. It's weird I want to be really thin, but not sickly. Which is kind of contradictory.
Any way I just thought I would give you that quick update. I don't know how ofter I will post, but I will post. It really just depends on if I get negative comments, teeling me I'm a fake and a liar and so forth.


Luck and love.